Waiting on You, Lord: August 2005

sze's week

wooowoo... finally after so long.

it was quite a tiring week up ahead especially after a series of events that took place continously.

sunday was quite a discouraging day though..but thank God He made me realize that if i keep on dwelling on it, it will just gets bigger..

lets see wads on sunday..

wake up early to eat breakfast withj my parents followed by church with Pastor Sy rogers as the preacher!! He is amazing. He shared about God's love. The message was something that moves me. I started tearing..

He shared about 3 thing love satisfies..

1.love is acceptance

2.love is affirmation

-His message got me quite touched. Pst Sy was sharing about her daughter had a great fall when she was riding her bicycke, and she was bleeding all over. She went running into his arms crying and wailing like nobody business...

He said, " Oh dear, my sweetie are u ok, you must be quite hurt!I wish dasddy can take away your pain"He hugged her and kissed her. (He is of course showing alot of affirmation and he is so sweet.) After which she got up and decided to ride her bike again, sobbing and limping her way.

point here is:The pain doesnt go away when she run into his arms. That act from her is questioning him :' Do u care for me when I fall? Will you still love me if I am tattered and torn?" God is He who loves, even when we are broken into pieces, He will pick us up. He heals that brokenness, fills up the empty voids in our hearts.

We matter to Him... *grins*

love is not just about relationship. Amen!!

Romans 12:15
15Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.

Philippians 2:4
4Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

3.love is accountability

this hit me! Sharing wadever thoughts u have, sharing the burden.

The LORD wants to guide you, don;t want you to hurt yourself.

many a times, we begin running on our own strength thinking that we can make it, but at the end of the day we end up with the wrong ways and getting hurts. Sometimes all it takes is just to ask Him God what do you want me to do..

Hebrews 3:14
14We have come to share in Christ if we hold firmly till the end the confidence we had at first.

loving people is actually quite a n easy and happy thing. Its more than just words. Thank God for people like xiaohui, theresa, xueping, nelly, alvin, shengmings..especially.. they showed forth sense of love not forgetting beloved lilian and christine who keeps on standing by me all the while. When things happen they will be there..

This week wasnt easy of course. It was a renewal of mindset that.. hey sze!! wake up.Knowing the word of God is a very very important fact. Seeking God everyday is not a routine, not religious activity but knowing how to tarry in His presence and find back that peace. When His presence comes, there is always such great love and tremendous joy that nobody in the world can understands more than yourself. To many , it may just be classics, but it is the word of life. The truth. So much more that i need to learn and I pray that I will keep on keeping on..

Recently was prescuted by dad quite severely. threw my books, bibles.. scolded me. so forth and so on. nearly felt like loosing all hopes. but i know.. that he loves this family alot alot. i just have to take on a less personal perspect and love him even more. moving back to hall doesnt really mean that i have spend tquality time with him. to tell the truth.. actually i didnt really have much chances, it seems like we have drifted a little. YUp! Love him.. i know many friends who say.. so thats what you get.. see love God and ur family?

i know that daddy loves me and i love him. its not just words.. guys, pray for me that God's love will be strongly bonded in the hearts of every family members..

Studies?

hmmm....

quite a grey area over here

seriously i thank God that He always give grace. When i am tired, i didnt have much chance to revise but i m not too stressed bcoz i know that i can ask for wisdom from Him. so far so good.. studies manageable, but going from glory to glory i pray!

tuition!!

first tuition, not much of an excitement!haha oright lahs, bit panic that i cant teach well then again its all in the mind

update again soon...