this picture we took at the airport when zhenxin left.shld be around july or earlier 

rainy day

I am counting down ro China. *laughs*

Davin is so nice, he give me a book and wrote a note inside. I wrote him a testomonial because he is so nice..

yest i went to surprise vel and sir in their hall. I pop out at their door step and of course they were totally taken aback! well i think it wasnt the right time afterall they were still hvaing exams... sir was quite aggravated because she didnt manage to study finish her exams, poor girl.super stressed now. I was quite shocked by her anger thou.God, I pray that you will give grace and love to her now.. so that she will stay in peace.

I went back hall. thank God baozhen was there. This girl is so sweet, she actually bother to organize an outing. Somehow i feel that she is someone special. A sister that looks so comical and rough on the outside but as you know her deeper, she is just an innocent little girl.

vel I enjoyed toking to you.although It may only be an hr. Its enough. I felt much better talking to you..All the best for ur exams. N i love ur design.. they are so awesomely cool!!

Today went to swim alone in the morning.The sun was great.. I love it! :) feel so loved by the warmth.. waiting for someone to play tennis with me before I go over to China!!

I met up with ken over at PS then we went to walk around.Still the same old hil with vulgarities.. Bible sayts that anger ll grief the spirit.

I dun really feel much of a peace though.

He is bored... hahaha

Anyway he left early..

I went around shopping..

Actually i have the urge to change my image..

I dun wanna wear those kiddy stuff..

I shld think its a struggle to stay in the mature zone afterall i am already 19

I was at Kinokuniya looking at the stationeries..

I want to be lost in ART

I shouldnt be in engine

Back in the art studio with the paintings, sculptures.. thats where I wanna be.. lost in the colors of life.. express my emotion and thoughts thru the works of Arts..

thats where I will see myself in..

the pain brushes, the pencils, they are so so familiar with me..

Was strolling around orchard alone.

It was an enjoyable period with peace and leisure.

God I dont want to think of anything else.

I am tired. I wanna feel your presence.

I want to run after you.

Thank God for such a great mother.She is ever so nice too..

I think that we should always learn to appreciate ever thing in life. Its a gift from God, Of course I wun forget to thank LILIAN for her company. Lilian when I am with you, I feel comfprt and joy.I dun need to hide. Every thing is with you, I am safe.

thank you adam for teaching us guitar at least i m not playing some noise now.. hahaha..

thank you LORD. I love you

exams are over

Looking back this long torturous preparation to exams and now finally exams are over..
of course I would like to thank God for His great company thru this times, when I felt helpless...There were times when I stress, were times when I got taken by the world..Times when I ponder why I am in this situation.. But thank GOD everything is over..

I was thinking if I shld keep this blog..SInce privacy no longer hold online..

really thank God for all the beautiful things He has done in my life..
The beautiful morning sunrises in hostels..
Rosie, ahbao n lifang.
in, babe, sarah, huiqin quiqiong Alan's s constant prayers...
My mum my dad my family's deep love care n concern
Lilian, mysister in Christ who is always so patient and caring
Chrisitine..
CYnthia.. her encouragement.
Adam for being so nice during the exam period
jiawei for helping me..
Nike for all the little things that encourages me so much
jasmine for the textbook
uncle for driving me to n fro
helena for msging me


i went to look for huiyin tdy. Was watching love actually.
its really a nice movie.LOve love love... its like so sweeeeet...
somehow when u feel discouraged, dun forget that love is all around. Never feel that the world is cold, n uncaring.. bcoZ thgere will always be someone who cares, even if there dun seemed to be.. Know that there is someone whose blood is shed on you-Jesus

I think me n him is quite impossible. Anyway I think Lilian is so sweet she has been praying for me. Gal ah, I dun think its possible so dun keep putting me with him..
Difference in conviction. was just talking to him online. he wants to go shopping, grooming himself.. but for me its different.

I wanna spend more time w family,

i wanna learn breakdance, line dance,

i wanna master guitar,

wanna bring forth revival in sch,

wana get things going in a better manner in cell,wanna help chris n chunshan n prisc n pam,

wanna finish driving..

go shopping

wanna lose weight

get back my tan

if possible i ll work for a while

alot o things to be done...

I do have a fleshly side, i was watching love actually today and i thought of him but apparently that was just pure fantasy.

I am fine now..

hahaha I bet lilian will be worried for thanks dear, I am ok!u r so sweet

tdy something bad happened to jon. He missed his exams.. v crucial paper-accounts for O lvl. 4/5 subjects cleared. I know thats not the end .. I know God has plans. I am believeing HIm for all I can to bring forth a miracle..

A miracle that ll bring joy n excitement.

Just prayed with Sarah i feel great

Tdy it was cell grp..

everything seemed to be in a rush.. but thank God its a rush with everything in place.

i felt that God has planted more love in to this family.

And I hope I can contribute more..

I wan to leave the old, impatient, angry me aside.

I am moving forward.. God I wanna see u change me to a better person..

I wan reflect ur Shine.

I wanna run after you

mr low.miss him so much.he is one funny kind sia. Suddenly msg me say he miss me .. 

me,lifang n Baobao.in their room..time now is 3am in the morning. 

me and ahbao!! ke ai de baoZhen!!  

COmputing coming up

Well time really flies. I was just looking at the computer this afternoon..

me and neighbor just blasted the song dou jiang you tiao in the blk..look at the time now...2++ i think those people who are sleeping is going to kill us..

Anyway I love tdy. I love the way the LORD gives me eternal sunshine.. I love the way the sin embraces me with endless smiles. No matter how unpromising the future may seem, I know He is there.. watching over me..

Studies.. Computing.. One more day wonder how much I can do.. I love jogging for He speaks to me, gives me peace and of course He reassures me that I can do all thing thru Christ who strengthens me..I love God..

Thank you Lifang for teaching me computing.Think she is really one quite zhai woman..Very nice machiam dajiejie.. She is patient and Don;t mind explaining to me.One of another factors that will keep me staying in the hall...Today is James aka gan die 's birthday!!! Heehee Another nice soul lying around.. LIfang's bf.. Nice chap. Looks like a little block but nice..

Thank you Ah bAO for the horrible voice..A nice nice gal with a very innocent heart.Hope that there will be someone to take gd care of this jiejie for me.. Dont know why I can just click with them..Very happy bcoZ she is open to the bible. I hope.. that she will get save.. Hahahaha make me laugh like nobody business.. REally destressing. I love them..She is cute.. Dun let her know. I ll post her picture up Soon..She and vince.. Hahahaha may have something going on..

Jim called today. Well haven been talking to him for so long le.He asks to meet.. Looks like its not too good to go out alone with him bcoZ he is quite touchy. Don't feel quite comfy o..He is a nice guy whom i treated as brother. Different ideas but he does understand what I think.

Him***Receiving his sms makes me smile.But... *shouldnt shoulnt...No No NO*Stupid stupid stUpid..

He msges me everyday.

its due to exam i suppose..

He seemed to be sensitive to what I say..When I thought he dun pay attention, actually he does.

He just told me that he will not get attach and his standards are very high.. tell me for what????Not as if I am interested.I jus dunt think he is as gd as he think he is.. Yayapapaya!!

Oh ya.. Poor Jiawei. He quite Upset w his gal gal. I wonder is he ok.Dear Lord, dun let him be too bothered hao ma.. Dont like to see him :(

Bought him chocolates wonder if that ll make me slightly better. He went jogging and vomitted poor thing... Jiayou Brother.. I am behind u. I am touched bcoz he actually shares his troubles with me..

I love jogging.

another one.. Peek a BOo 

Babies.. So nice.. Hey peeps smile!! u r so cutes 

Lets not be synical...

Many question whats salvation.. Salvation is of course not just going to church.Many fear church.. Perhaps of the persuasve attitude of the believers. Salvation is when people begin to know Christ and He who died on the cross... He has come to love. Even the most hardened hearts has crumbled before God's presence. But many still stick in their radical mindsets, trying to prove God wrong.. Well, sorry peeps, try harder.. Why reject a love that is so pure and innocent and try to find faults in the perfect? Our sins has crucified Him unto the cross... watch passion of Christ.. That is real, but many still dun believe..
I hope through me, I can share the gospels..I dowan to see people oppressed. Close friends.. They don;t understand. They think I just want to share my religion.. Its not.. I dowan to see them going into hell.. Well, maybe it doesnt strike an eyelid since they dun believe in hell.. i dowan to see them in eternal fire..
My parents especially.. I really hope they will be saved. They are so so so nice people. Closest to me.. I never want to be apart from them.

Ponder at such thoughts now and then as they begin to persecute me.. But I know my dear LOrd will never disappoint me.. Hope cynthia, rosie, xinyu and Helena..all others will soon begin to see you.. They are so nice so nice to me.. God I want to be with them..And not see the church that they dun like.. yup yup... *sobs*

First day of exam

Today is the most beautiful day on human earth.. Another new dimension of my life.. Stepping out to smile and shine with Your radiance and hope..


well thank God for Davin.. He pray for me and sang for me.. so nice.. I wasnt feeling quite well 2days ago.. I also dunno why.. Thank God I am fine now!! :) I want to have the love that contain everybody, everybody's faults.. Jesus said the greatest thing is not faith but love... I know that when I love people, they will be happy..Dont want people to be sad...

was talking to huishan 2days go, she was very upset. Well, I dun really noe how I can help.. Pray that God in heaven pprotect this little sis of mine.. Huang Na, who has died, pray that she rest in peace.. Pray that the world will be filled with love and not with unrest...Its the main purpose of Jesus dying on the cross...

I think Ah bao and Lifang they are super nice.. They make me feel so wen xin when I am in hall..Yup, they are like dajiejie..

Cyndi pass me the letter... I am touched. Well, really wanna be in the same class as her ba. well get to know her more.. I hope she can be my sister in Christ.. Really..
Suddenly miss xinyu.. felt like calling her.. *hugs*

today math paper was a ok paper. Not sure if I can do superbly well, but I am secured with Him with me.. I finished the paper!

Had lunch with Adam. Well, he may be going to SMU. He cant really take the stress.. If its God's will, then so be it..

Him..Him.. Him.. Trying to deny the fact that I may have fallen for the guy. Getting paranoid at my behavior... Thank God He reasures me, I am perfect in God's eyes.. Nothing is wrong with me.If ever if its not Your will, I guess I got to move on. Anyway I think this infatuation is over.. My own fantasy is getting me into vicious cycle of paranoia.I think its impossible for us to get together ba.. Well he may look for me every now and then but I think to him, i m just another friend who cares that all..

I went jogging yest.. It was great... I love it when I am alone. Spendin time thinking about the people around me..

2more days...

Dear Lord....
I have 2 more days to my first maths paper as you know..2more days..
yest ur presence was very strong.I felt your love overwhelmed me.. Who is there but you alone. WHo will support me and tide through the storms.. I long to dwell in ur presence.Long to worship you..I wont put ahead of you, nor anybody else.. You have come to love..
szeyin